Thursday, August 12, 2010

Scans All Clear . . . Again!

Just a quick update to let you know that I had my quarterly scans today (Chest-Abdomen-Pelvis CT-Scan only) and, once again, I've been given the "all clear" by Dr. Monson!  So I'm good for the next 3 months.  Yeah!

The only odd thing is that I've noticed I'm developing a certain sense of complacency about what I've gone through and where I'm at.  It's like I told a friend of my recently: when you're diagnosed, you immediately go into denial since "this sort of thing can't happen to me".  Of course, that eventually turns to acceptance (the chemo will surely bring that realization).  But then, after your treatment is complete and life returns to "normal", you eventually start to shift back into denial as to whether or not you actually went through what you went through (and hence the complacency).  I've by no means forgotten where I've come from, but believe me, denial happens both at the time of diagnosis and some number of months after treatment and full recovery.

I'm just thankful that people are reading this blog as it forces me (in a good way) to remember what I've been through, talk about where I'm at, and think about the long-term, which I approach with cautious optimism . . . mixed with a pinch of denial that everything is perfectly fine (and nothing was ever wrong).  It's hard to explain, but I think you get the picture.

Well, time to call it a night here.  Talk to you-all again in another 3 months!