Thursday, August 12, 2010

Scans All Clear . . . Again!

Just a quick update to let you know that I had my quarterly scans today (Chest-Abdomen-Pelvis CT-Scan only) and, once again, I've been given the "all clear" by Dr. Monson!  So I'm good for the next 3 months.  Yeah!

The only odd thing is that I've noticed I'm developing a certain sense of complacency about what I've gone through and where I'm at.  It's like I told a friend of my recently: when you're diagnosed, you immediately go into denial since "this sort of thing can't happen to me".  Of course, that eventually turns to acceptance (the chemo will surely bring that realization).  But then, after your treatment is complete and life returns to "normal", you eventually start to shift back into denial as to whether or not you actually went through what you went through (and hence the complacency).  I've by no means forgotten where I've come from, but believe me, denial happens both at the time of diagnosis and some number of months after treatment and full recovery.

I'm just thankful that people are reading this blog as it forces me (in a good way) to remember what I've been through, talk about where I'm at, and think about the long-term, which I approach with cautious optimism . . . mixed with a pinch of denial that everything is perfectly fine (and nothing was ever wrong).  It's hard to explain, but I think you get the picture.

Well, time to call it a night here.  Talk to you-all again in another 3 months!

4 comments:

WaltBayliss said...
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David said...

Dave, keep on fighting! I found your page while searching myxoid liposarcoma, as my wife was a 4 (or 7) year survivor, but just passed away on 10/25/10. It was a long fight, but an original misdiagnosis may have caused us to lose her sooner than should have. We can't ever know for sure, but she had a tumor removed from her leg in 2003, and it was said to have been a cyst. It came back, along with an evil friend on her kidney, in 2006. We fought it for the past four years with chemo and surgeries. Once she found out the fight was over, I created a facebook page for her:
http://www.facebook.com/home.php#!/pages/Barbaras-Battle/160604370625831

In less than a month after I started the page, she passed away. Sarcoma is so evil, but different bodies handle it in different ways. I pray that you will have continued success. Your blog rung so true in our lives over the past four years. Scared, then relieved, denial then hope. She was strong and never gave up hope. It's been just a week, and I already miss her so much. Just wanted to touch base with you and hope to follow your blog for many, many years to come!

Dave

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